Kate!

Last Friday, I saw and met the amazing Kate Gosselin. If by chance you've never heard of her, Google her. ;) She made a stop in Pleasant Hill for her book signing tour, so Lindsey and I took the opportunity to see her. Of course, we had to buy the book in order to get the wristbands, which were required to be in line. It was worth it though. Mission accomplished. Oh and I just have to gush at how pretty she is. =) Next mission: to meet the rest of her beautiful family, Jon and the eight little faces.

Happy Easter!

This Lenten season, I felt the works of God happen to me. The beautiful way of its beginning with the flight to LAX for LA Congress was just a simple glimpse of what was ahead of me. I began the journey with the ministry that would re-strengthen my faith in Him, and that was an experience in and of itself. The people I saw, met, and heard during the four-day weekend was heart-opening. I thank and praise God for that. My 40 days of sacrifice was nothing in comparison to what Jesus had done for me, personally. Without Him, I am nothing. As the season rolled on, I am reminded of what I have learned of my personal past dating all the way back to 2000+ years ago. For God so loved the world, He gave us His only son. That alone gives me the overwhelming feeling that someone loved me before He could even meet me. It's an amazing love.

On Friday, the CORE team put together an activity for the youth to experience and feel the Lord's sacrifice. Though not everyone was ready for it, the result gave all of us the affirmation and satisfaction that we are doing right. When we did the activity amongst ourselves, we realized its impact and intensity. We would never understand unless we've been through it ourselves, truth. And so as this Lenten season ends, I want to share that I have renewed my vows with the Lord, and a healthier heart resides in me. A beautiful Easter Sunday it was, Praise You Jesus. Alleluia, Alleluia!

April Showers

Gaaah!

• It's spring time, and it has been raining all week. I miss last week's sunny weather.
• Work has been so hectic. My schedule is indefinitely tentative. It's gay. I feel unappreciated, and am definitely underpaid.
• I'm broke, and this time... I am not to blame. I'd rather not discuss this any further.
  
• Allergies are whack. Headaches are even more whack.
• Annoyed. Irritated. Trying to stay calm.

Horrible awakening.
On Sunday evening, a good friend of mine, Joe, was a victim of neighborhood crime. Click here to read the story. When I read text messages and tweets talking about the incident, I could not believe my eyes. I thought I was dreaming, or perhaps reading incorrectly. Then, of course, reality hit me. He underwent surgery on Monday, is well on his way to recovery. He is still, however, in everyone's prayers, including mine. How could such thing happen to such a great guy? I don't have any answers, nor do a lot of people close to him. Still, things happen for a reason. Though unfortunate, I'm sure it's God's way of sending us all a message. We love you, Joe. You're amazing, and like everyone said, you gaaangsta you! :) Rika's lucky, as are you. May the truth come to light. <3

That's all for now. Spring break is next week, and for the first time in years, I am going to stay in town for work. Boo being grown up. *sigh...*

My teeth fell out.

I was just about ready to fall asleep when the dream I had last night dawned on me. I meant to look up the meaning of it during the day, but never got around to it. (There goes that being too busy thing again.) Anyway, I figured that I look it up before I forget all about it, which is what tends to happen. See, I had a dream that my teeth fell out along with parts of the gum and palate that I never knew even existed, or at least could fall out the way it did. To say the least, I was horrified to see myself with no front teeth and weak gums. Hah! I almost cried, but I woke up before anything else could happen. The first thing I did? Looked in the mirror to make sure my teeth were still in tact. It sounds funny now, but it wasn't this morning. =/ Anyway, I 'googled' dreams, and below is an excerpt (that of which I thought related to me) from dreammoods.com.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

I just thought I'd share because it somewhat related to what I had just vented about. Uncanny. And for the record, I rarely look up the meaning of my dreams. Perhaps, I should start looking into it every once in a while. Idk.

April Fools.

It wasn't until I looked at my iCal that I realized a new month has begun. That's pretty sad.

I feel the need to pay a little more attention to the world around me. I have been so caught up with work, school, and other bah humbugs that I forgot where last month went. Looking back at my planner, month was full of "plannings" for short-term, one day type of events. Really, those were what they were: short term plans. Thumbs down for me.

Since LA Congress, I've been trying to be involved with youth group again. Our April newsletter looks amazing! :) I can't wait to send them out to parents. Also, I have been on a hunt for a few good volunteering opportunities. Something that everyone in the group can participate in and have fun with. Hopefully, we as a whole will be able to come up with something.

SO. Even though life has been good to me in the past month, I still have things to vent. See, I try to do what I can, but it seems as though nobody believes in me. If only people would listen up, then perhaps I can deliver something great. When nobody cares to listen, the urge to be proactive just goes away. I mean what for, right? Powerlessness. I'm not saying that everything I have to say or give is magnificent, but they could be helpful. Yes, believe it or not, I can be helpful. (ha!) Spirit committee. Social events organizer. Community service coordinator. Those were all me. For four freaking years of my life. And if I may say so myself, we freakin' rocked! Yay, Mustangs! Haha. Now, believe in me people. I'm part of the Core, too. (:

Powerlessness. In general at the moment. I need to find a niche, once again. I've lost my grip, and it's time to get it back. 'Create a clean heart in me, O God.' Amen.

Nonetheless, I'm loving things. & people. & life.