It wasn't until I looked at my iCal that I realized a new month has begun. That's pretty sad.
I feel the need to pay a little more attention to the world around me. I have been so caught up with work, school, and other bah humbugs that I forgot where last month went. Looking back at my planner, month was full of "plannings" for short-term, one day type of events. Really, those were what they were: short term plans. Thumbs down for me.
Since LA Congress, I've been trying to be involved with youth group again. Our April newsletter looks amazing! :) I can't wait to send them out to parents. Also, I have been on a hunt for a few good volunteering opportunities. Something that everyone in the group can participate in and have fun with. Hopefully, we as a whole will be able to come up with something.
SO. Even though life has been good to me in the past month, I still have things to vent. See, I try to do what I can, but it seems as though nobody believes in me. If only people would listen up, then perhaps I can deliver something great. When nobody cares to listen, the urge to be proactive just goes away. I mean what for, right? Powerlessness. I'm not saying that everything I have to say or give is magnificent, but they could be helpful. Yes, believe it or not, I can be helpful. (ha!) Spirit committee. Social events organizer. Community service coordinator. Those were all me. For four freaking years of my life. And if I may say so myself, we freakin' rocked! Yay, Mustangs! Haha. Now, believe in me people. I'm part of the Core, too. (:
Powerlessness. In general at the moment. I need to find a niche, once again. I've lost my grip, and it's time to get it back. 'Create a clean heart in me, O God.' Amen.
Nonetheless, I'm loving things. & people. & life.