Caramel friday.

I'm sitting on my bed with only the screen as my source of brightness. Beside me are one and a half (I've eaten the other half) caramel apple empanadas and a tall caramel frappuccino. I'm content. :) I could on turn on the TV, but that will take away from the peacefulness of my room. I like this every once in a while. Complete silence, only hearing the uncontrollable wind or cars passing by outside my window. I miss this, actually. I miss being able to hear thoughts, and pray for them too. Still, I ask... why is it so cold this late in February?

These past few days, I feel like a teeny bopper who wants to stalk her celebrity crushes. The thing though is that I have none, nor would I stalk them if I did. This is pretty weird, lol. Still in the same time frame came my lowest point for some time now. IT SUCKS! I feel like I fell into this unseen hole, and I have no one to help me up. Why am I feeling this way? I don't understand this, and if this is hormones of some sort - yearning for spring maybe - well, I don't want it. I just want to be happy, and enjoy my everday. =| Yeaaah.

I probably just need some sleep. and motivation. and get back on point with my faith. <3

The biggest little city in the world!

I love weekend getaways - this past weekend was to Reno, NV! First stop was Boreal Mountain Resort in Truckee for some fun in the snow with my brother, sister-in-law, niece, boyfriend, God-daugher, and friends. Kuya Reggie, Ate Cel, Kyla, Mike, Sam, Em, Sarah, JP, and Sheryll. :) Afterward, we all drove another hour to Reno, where stayed at Harrah's. Thanks for the free rooms, Kuya & Ate! We also had bogo dinner at Carvings Buffet, then free breakfast the following morning. Yesss! We basically just chilled and stuffed our noses with second-hand smoke. >.< Gross! Despite losing hard-earned cash, I still had lots of fun. & btw, I love the Sex and the City machines - they're so posh and lucky. Heh.

Today, once again, was back to reality. I woke at around 5:30am, and contemplated for about forty-five minutes on whether to go to work or call in. I called in. :( I hate calling in, but I really couldn't lift my head off the pillow. I'm still feeling under the weather, but at least I can get myself up and about now. I'm nervous about going back to work tomorrow, especially since I know how my coworkers and higher-ups are. *sigh* But like Jennifer said, I just gotta do me. Yeaaah.

Well, good night world. :)

W.A.

Thank goodness tomorrow's finally Friday! This week, by far, has been the longest four-day work week EVER! There were so many things to do, reports that needed to be done, documents and paperwork that needed to be processed and loaded, and the worst part of all - there are more to do tomorrow! ARGH. ;[ I am irritated at the fact that I have on and off coworkers. Their biz gets so irritating, and the worst part is that they think it's all okay. EACH OF THEM, no exceptions. Please stop thinking that you are doing soooo much more than me when in reality, I have taken just about most of your load that you used to complain about. Seriously, proof scanning isn't difficult... at all! Quit putting it off because we're getting negative feedbacks. And you, please stop thinking that you're doing that much work. Honestly, what you do in a week is less than what I do in a day. Real talk. *sigh...* I hate having to put authority in place, especially to someone who is like a mom to me, but c'mon, can I get a little respect please? Thanks.

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Mike works a lot, almost too much. Don't get me wrong or anything because I love that he gets a lot of hours at work and all. However, to work just about everytime work needs him? AHH! I get that he wants / needs the hours, and that he loves his work and coworkers so much he can't just leave them hanging, but... please, can he love himself too? Can he take a break sometimes? Even for just a day... like the days he's originally scheduled off. It's been a while... and it's not even his career.

Yeaaah, that's all for now. I'm tired. Lent is so far so good. :)

Live simply so that others may simply live.

Ash Wednesday. I attended the 4:15 mass at Holy Spirit with Mike. It felt so good to be back. :)

For this Lenten Season, I have decided that I will try my best to live simply. No big splurges, no abrupt wants. I have to think carefully and responsibly. Priorities in check. In addition, I will try to not be so stressed and cranky, haha. I've been having some serious issues with those two late, as well as cursing and drinking excessive soda. AHK. I know those may not sound too bad, but problems are problems and excess means too much.

God, please be with me.

I want to better myself as well as those around me. I want to be a positive part of someone and anyone's life, even if it is just for a minute or two. I wish to be selfish in a way that I can give myself to others, and to share what I possess with those who need it more.  Most of all, I want my next forty days to last my next forty lifetimes.

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All these stress, pressure, and expectations from the world I live in have me slacking off and neglecting the people and things that matter most.  I hate this feeling. I hate feeling helpless. I have a few more hours to think of how to enrich myself and my life during the Lenten season and the rest of the year.

Here we go...

Saint Valentine

Once again, I faced a very stressful week at work.  On Thursday, we were given a task to prepare $300,000 all in $20 bills by the next morning. O_O! Given that our vault isn't even entitled to that much money, please believe that everyone in the higher-ups were frantic about meeting the demand, myself included. After verifying and putting my thumb print on all 15,000 bills, I was basically done looking at any more. Aah.. phew. After all the shifting, adjusting, and trades... we were able to meet the demand before close of business. I think everyone was relieved. Yahoo! :)

The weekend was great.

On Saturday, my favorite Sarah Kay treated me too spa and pedicure. It was her and my Goddaughter's Valentine's day gift to me. Aww... :) Later that night, we (Ate Sarah, Kuya Em, Sam, Mike, and I) went to Fentons for dinner and generous heaps of dessert. SO GOOD! and sinful.

For Valentine's Day, Mike and I watched Dear John then had dinner at Hs Lordship's in Berkeley, CA. I had crab & shrimp stuffed salmon, while he feasted on a 3/4 lb prime rib. YUM! The part in the book that had me crying also got me during the movie. Oh man. <3 The night was of course ended with Starbucks before he dropped me off. Thanks for the flowers, singing balloon, and chocolates, Valentine!

Today, Mike and I took Patrick, Matt, and Kyla to the Walt Disney Family Museum at the Presidio in San Francisco, CA. I want to go back just so I can re-read everything. It was sort of hard when looking after kids at the same time. After the museum, we took the kids to Hooters for chicken wings, fries, and burgers, then went to CB&TL. We took the kids down Lombard Street (the most crooked street in the world) and took the Golden Gate Bridge homebound to add to our educational trip. Haha! Fun, fun. :D

& that's all for now.

Who dat?

Who dat? Drew Brees, Reggie Bush, and the rest of the Saints... that's who! :)

The rest of the work week was hell. I am officially at the desk. Still, there will always be people who are envious and forever bitter. There will always be two-faced liars. It's basically a love-hate relationship right now. I love that I have a full time job, but hate that I'm blatantly underpaid and can't do anything about it. *sigh...* Anyone out there hiring full time? :) Gimme a career, please! Hah.

I'm just glad that this weekend made up for it all. Reunited with loves at Lindsey's 4th birthday party. After the party, we watched Michael Jackson's This Is It on bluray. Everyone knows that today is Superbowl (XLIV) Sunday, and the Saints won! I have nothing against Manning (extreme respect for that man) and the Colts, but the Saints though... woo! ;) It was a great game, lots of talent, and I'm happy it was worth watching. Oh, and my favorite ad from this year? The Google Parisian Love ad. It is so cute! :D



Tomorrow, I have to go back to work.  -___- I'd rather not. I'd much rather be with friends and family. Most def.

First day of the second month...

ALREADY?! Time is seriously on lightspeed. Slow down a bit, pleeease... =/

On a good note, I've filed my federal and state taxes! :) I am expecting my returns to be deposited into my account in the next three weeks. YAAAY! It's too bad that "the more you make, the less you get." Oh well, at least I get something. I've also started on Mike's taxes, and all I have to do is wait for him to provide the rest of the documents. I feel kind of proud, but hopefully I did everything correctly. I do not want to get audited by the IRS. O_o Yikes!

First day of the month is always busy at work. I've done my retentions and submitted my reports. By Wednesday, I just have to do audits, inventories, and review paperworks. I guess I gotta go in to work extra early in the next two days. *sigh...*